2:48pm

.....after way to much too much time lost my life begins anew.

I AM that Phoenix!

The one thing that I loved the most has left my life. Well I have not loved her for the longest time, and as I’ve looked back over these “wasted” years I realize that I never loved her like I should have. She never let me. I tried so hard and should have given up long before I started compromising my life. A few of those years I lost my soul and I’ll never get that time back, but I’m a person who believes in a God of second chances and that where I’m at now.

The hardest part of it all was forgiving myself for believing one fear…..being alone.

So I begin again and I have to be honest I really don’t see the outcome. What I mean is that I don’t see where my life may end up. What I do understand is that I buried myself over these years and allowed myself to diminish and shrink.

Things that have already gone my way.

1) She is gone
2) I’m not afraid
3) I don’t hate her (this is important, bitterness stifles growth)
4) ILML! (I love my life)
5) A new friend reached out to me to offer herself to model for me when I get started.
6) The right friends make all the difference.

7) Last but not least….a little photo taken by Stephen Perry of the raven haired porcelain skinned beauty named Ivory Flame opened up buried desires to produce beautiful works of art with a camera. Way too long has this been locked up.



Let’s see what happens…….